Why must things adding more and more to my life?
Why things getting more and more rubbish.
Why can't you guys let me off?
Why YOU people must do this to me?
What if I don't have a friend. I'll jsut say bye to the world.
Cause Family did This. to me, guys make me crazy.
Now left with friends, to all my friends, if i lose you guys, i really have no choice
and is like no point living in this world already.
I'm now in tears always in tears, heart broken.
Family :
You guys think I did not tahan you guys?
I shut my mouth for years. And total of 15 years i've live, bear for so many years,
you guys still want me to get more crazy?
To stay in IMH is it??
What you want from me?
I got enough tolerate you guys for very long.
Just because of ytd stuff have to lead to so many other stuff which is Crazy.
You guys having fun saying craps?
These is specially to YOU 'mum and dad' DAD.
You sucks.
I know you accept me as your step daughter, i know you try to accept and marry my mum. And accept bro and i , i know its hard for you.
And i hate, HATE your behavior.
Now you have your own son, you made one.
wow, great. Asshole.
You're just too selfish.
Whatever,i know wad ure thinking, i dun care if u reads.
And i duno u can read?you need glasses.
Im not being mean, is you make me say all these, i know u treat us all well .
Very well, HOW well??
WHEN IM YOUNG?!?!?
You know wad u did...
ANd now? Have you done all tht to ur son??
have you?have you? have you? have you? have you? have you?
I hate it when you say ' ni men ' WHEN only ONE person in the WRONG!!
you said tht for 15 years.
And I bear for 15 years, i shut my mouth for many years, its of course THE TIME for me
to wakeup and talk!! YOU mother; you said we grown up, and now I LEARN from my bro.
Excuse me, which behavior of mine LIKE HIS?!?!?
I still study! I dont go home LATE!
I never smoke 23894735 packets of cigarettes! I did not **** **** ** *** like crazy!!
So what i have boyfriends b4? I have my own world, but not over your limits, I did not fck them, I did not over react!! And I have my own secrets in life, and I have my OWN sorrow!!
You just cant understand!!! i've been very very very VERY sad for the past whole months..
And now you give me these bull shitS ....
What you want more from me,
I cant study and i TRIED. You should know I cant, and wadever.
You ask me for tuition I consider, cos you have to work and earn Extras for it, and i think for you!
I think for you guys!!! Any of you think for me?!?!?
You guys says these say that, you guys just DONT understand.
You want me to say all these to you especially the bf part, And you guys can USE THESE
to sabo me and Shoot nonsence at me. You think im stupid???
And i cant tell all my sorrow and i keep it to myself, and u guys just cant think of tht???!
What you want???
Talking about keeping to myself, I always, ALWAYS keep stuff to myself, and suddenly one say, i'll just become crazy. and you guys are happy,right?
God made us, and exact--
I understand and we must overcome it, and its Cruel! nvm.
You gusy will think tht is I CHOOSE one.
yeayea, wadever.
Am i talking to myself?
There i go again.
Whatever. And you know what you did mum, you just too cruel.
When i got beaten, you know wad u did, watching TV!
After my ""getting well beaten""" you just went back and sleep.
Whatever. And Nobel, what you did to him?
SAYANG HIM! You think i duno?
You think your WOW mother?
*Spit*!
You got my present and you know u dump in ur drawer and even LET nobel to PLAY!!
What is this? You should know where is the bear now, its wif me, and you just dont appreciate things. You know how hard i bought it, i hate you on tht day. I told my ex bf, im glad he cheer me up, if not, more % of craziness of me will increase.
I got more to say, i can use daysss to say about u 2.
But im tired, too tired, and you know tears, a person who cry over the limit will go blind.
You want me go blind and you guys happy???
If i got a job and the boss or wadever reading these and its affect my life/ job .
I really cant say any thing, its my life, and i want to make a note and a history of my past about it.
I just say out how i feel.
I cant stop what its happening, all i cant is write them down.
My apology to whatever I've said, and all i can say, is this is my life.
A cruel and broken one.
Goodbye
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